Some people melt 'em down in a needle and shoot 'em up

Inferno

The weekend came and luckily Scott stayed the night with a friend. I, Mel, Ninja, Sam, Jeremy, and Steven got together in Mel's car and drove out in the middle of the country at midnight. We were packed in her small car, sitting in each other's laps. We had just bought some dope and sat smoking it. Then we drove back into town and around the city. We stopped at Mom's and hung out. We had some extra money so Ninja called a connection of his and we bought more dope. Ninja reserved some for the 4 of us to shoot up later and the rest we passed around in the pipes.

At 3 or 4 in the morning, we were beginning to crash. We said goodbye to Mom and piled back into the car. We drove back to nowhere and Ninja got the syringes ready. Steven and Jeremy told me they were disappointed in me for being a “needle junkie”. They wouldn't listen to me when I told them that this would only be my second time.

Sam went first. "Holy shit, this is way better!", she cried when it hit her veins. Mel went next and then Ninja. I was crashing hard and it put me in a bad mood. My friends were beginning to get on my nerves. I was pissed that I was crammed in the back sitting on Steven’s lap. When it came to my turn, there were so many people in the car that I had to lean over and hold my arm out unsteadily while Ninja tied the tourniquet on in the relative dark. He had a hard time finding my vein and just guessed. I watched him pull some of my blood into the syringe and he was about to push the stopper when I felt a very cold sensation where the needle was. "Oops, blew a vein." Ninja said and started moving the needle around to find a new one. I was pissed. "Take that shit out!" I yelled. He pulled it out and asked if I wanted to drink the contents. I couldn't waste it so I took the syringe and looked at the red, bloody solution. I opened my mouth, squirted it in and threw the syringe out the window. I asked Mel to take me back to my car. The drugs I swallowed wouldn't be enough to get me back to feeling good. I decided going home would be better than sitting around being the only somewhat sober person, who also had a massive headache.

As I was driving home, I rubbed the big blue bubble under my skin where the vein had blown. I was thankful that it was still winter out and I would be wearing my coat when I got home so my parents wouldn't see my mangled arm.

Monday during school, Mel asked if my arm was okay and said that Ninja got a new connect and we had to try out his stuff. After school, Sam and I got in Mel's car and picked up Ninja. We drove around smoking the new stuff, which was amazing, and then they dropped me back off at my car so I could go to work. I had never been to work while tweaking before. I rearranged all the display cases, cleaned the diamonds 2 or 3 times and personally escorted all the customers who had stopped to ask me where the bathroom was.

That night Scott and I had our last fight. He was irate because I had been spending a lot of time with Mel and Sam. The next day I asked Sam how Daniel was doing. She recently moved in with him and Adam. She told me he was fine and newly single. Then she told me that I should dump my asshole boyfriend and go for Daniel. I thought about it for a while, and while I wasn't too attracted to him, it would be nice to have a place to do our drugs. Sam gave me his cell number and told me to call after school and ask for her. She wouldn't be there, so I could start a conversation with him. It worked like a charm. He was out with friends when I called and I asked him to meet me up at the mall. We walked around and flirted for a couple of hours and then I had to get to work.

After work as I was walking out to my car, Scott called me, like he did every night at 9:00. The first thing I said was that I was tired of him. I was tired of his scary mood swings and I was done with him. At first he argued with me. I got in my car and started driving home. By the time I got to my house he was in tears begging me to take him back. The meth I had smoked before going to the mall that day was still in my system and gave me the courage to stay strong. It was finally over. I gave all the credit to meth. It saved me from that relationship.

The next night after work, I stopped by the apartment "to see Sam." She was still at work so I sat with Daniel and his sister. Out of nowhere, he leaned over and kissed me. "If you really want to do this, you need to tell her. It's only fair." She said to him. I looked at Daniel confused. "I want to ask you out but there's something about me that I have to tell you." Daniel said to me. He took my hand and lead me out to the courtyard. We sat on a bench and he hung his head down. He told me that he was in a halfway house on a juvenile corrections facility from the time he was 15 until he turned 18. "I'm not allowed to get in contact with some of my family, and the rest just refuse to talk to me. Jessi is the only one who forgave me, the only family I have." I asked him why. "When I was 15, I sexually assaulted my 6 year old sister, more than once." I couldn't believe it. I wondered what it was about me that attracted wackos. But seeing the shame in his face made me force myself to see passed his past. I needed a safe place to do drugs. I took his hand and kissed him. We became a couple that night, even though looking at him made me sick.

Ninja moved in the next day. He had just been kicked out of Jeremy’s house by his parents and I asked Daniel if Ninja could live with him, just for a little while. I had noticed that I had become attracted to Ninja and wanted to make sure he was okay. Each day after school, we all congregated at the apartment and pooled our money together. Then Ninja called someone and poof, we had dope. We sat and smoked. Daniel had never been high in his life and I convinced him to try dope. I sat in front of him and coached him, just like Ninja had with me. I pulled a hit for him and he was hooked. When the meth was gone, we sat and smoked cigarette after cigarette. Then it was time for me to go to work.

After one eventful night of drugs, Mel was called home and Sam had to go to work. Daniel was in an interview for a night stocking job at Walmart. It was my day off so Ninja and I were left to our own devices. We caught up with Jeremy and Steven, and got in Jeremy’s car. We drove around for a while when Jen called. I told her we would be over in a few minutes to give her a ride to work. When we picked her up, there was so much junk in the back seat that I had to sit in Ninja's lap to let her in, which I didn't mind. "You guys look like you've had fun." She said. "We been high." Ninja told her. "Weed or what?" Jen asked, even though she knew the answer. "METH!" Ninja howled. Jen rolled her eyes and mumbled something about us needing to quit. She hopped out of the car when we got to her work and waved.

I tried to roll out of Ninja's lap when there was room again, but Ninja put his arms around me and wouldn't let me. I was upset that our flirting could go no further because I couldn't betray Mel and I was afraid to get Daniel mad at Ninja because he could kick him out.

The next day, I had another day off and was feeling great. I went to the apartment and Ninja said he just scored some Oxycontin. I'd heard of it but had no idea what it was. I didn't ask though, I didn't care. Ninja had also been to the store and had bought 3 new syringes. "Wanna try this?", he asked Daniel. Daniel looked at me. Poor thing was trying so hard to impress me, so he agreed. "Me first!" I yelled. After Ninja broke down the pills in water, he shot it up then gave one to Mel . He only had one syringe left and asked if Danny would mind sharing with me. He didn't. So Ninja put the tourniquet on me. By this time I knew the routine so I pumped my hand and found a good vein. Then Ninja slipped the needle in. I felt nothing. 6 hours later I still felt nothing. I decided that I hated oxy. It was a waste of time.